In my daughter's eyes

Wow! I can't believe how time has flown by! My efforts at weight loss have been on the back burner until this week. I've just been too overwhelmed with taking raising 6 kids, taking Christmas down and trying to keep my head above water. Last week I commandeered my recumbent bike back from my father, who borrowed it as he was recovering from a total knee replacement. I was a little miffed when he mentioned that he had only used it ten or fifteen times. UG!

I have been hesitant to jump back on the weight loss band wagon full force while nursing my little baby, but I have started weening her this week. I'm hoping in three weeks to have her totally on a bottle. Then I don't need to be concerned about getting enough calories for me and her.

So last night as a I pedaled for my life on my newly reclaimed bike. With sweat dripping down my back and face while I tried not to gasp for breath too loudly, my eight year old daughter came into my room and stood in front of me with her big toothy grin. She just stood there, smiling at me. So I asked her, "Whats up?" and she replied, "I'm just really happy!" She was happy that I was exercising. She remembers me before I gained 70 pounds during pregnancy, and she wants that mom back. She remembers me working so hard before my pregnancy to get in shape, and she is hoping for a repeat performance.

Wow. I didn't know if I should be happy or sad. Sometimes I forget that my weight effects more than just me. It's my hope that my new little one will never know a fat mommy. That by the time she is old enough to remember, I will be the fit, healthy person I dream about.

Time flies when you feel like crap!

Wow! Time has really flown by. We had our first Dr's apt. on Tuesday this week. He did an ultrasound.... and everything looks great! I'm 8+ weeks along and really feeling like crap. We went ahead and told the kids on Tuesday night. They were super excited. (even our 15 year old)
I have had a hard time not eating everything in sight! I am hungry ALL the time. Getting to the gym has been a challenge since I am also SO tired. In just a few short weeks my life has totally changed. I figure I have about 5 weeks left til I'm feeling better. (for the most part) It will be Spring time then, and I can hardly wait.

Until then, I am doing the best I can. It's funny, but the fatigue I'm feeling reminds me of before I had lost weight. Oh well, I couldn't ask for a better curve ball. :0