I find it ironic that when we are at our lowest point. When we feel huge, unhealthy, unattractive, completely out of shape and utterly miserable. When we feel that we have no hope left, when we just can't live another day as the person that we've become, that is the moment that we need to reach down inside ourselves and find the strength that we never knew was there.
It is at that point in our lives, when we are burdened down by this incredible feeling of hopelessness, that we must love ourselves enough to save our own lives.
That is where I am at now. Don't get me wrong, I'm not throwing myself off a building or anything. But I am completely discouraged at what has become of my body, and my spirit. Because lets face it, the two are intertwined. And we must reach down deep inside ourselves and find the courage to become that person that we know we can be. That amazing person inside of us that is longing to be set free.
She's down there. I know she is. I see her sometimes when I accomplish something I didn't think I could do. When I learn something new that I hadn't dare try before. But I want to be her. I want to be her so bad I can taste it. I can do this. I was meant to do this. This is my struggle in life, and I WILL overcome it.
Now I've got to go put some action (exercise) behind my words. Have a great weekend everyone!
sounds like my first post. hang in there and take it one day, one pound at a time.
ReplyDeleteJust keep taking those baby steps and soon you'll be leaping! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks for the encouragement guys! Got my workout in, so I'm feeling pretty darn good.
ReplyDeleteI remember a time not too long ago when I was in the dumps. I'm talking staying in my bed all day or crawling in a corner and blasting some music because I couldn't bare to think or feel anything. Somehow, over time, I got a little bit of myself back every day. I'm not fully back yet, I know I have a lot to learn still, but I'm content with where I am and know it's possible one day to be genuinely happy. Glad you got your workout in! Have a good Sunday!
ReplyDeleteFirst of all, I'm totally glad you're not going to throw yourself off a building :)
ReplyDeleteAnd secondly, I so hear you. Very powerful post. I really understood how you feel. Sometimes I'm feeling fatter than I did before I lost some weight...I think it's from being bloated - or my mind trying to get me to eat something bad. Sorry mind - I'm the boss now.
Your post made me all teary eyed because I know that feeling all too well! I like what others have said, one day and one pound at a time. It's hard for us to wrap our minds around the fact that it took years to get us where we are and it's going to take years to fix it.
ReplyDeleteWhat a brave post. So many of us have been there. And now, so many of us are here to cheer each other on and support for each other as we make large and small changes that will lead to healthier lives. I look forward to following your accomplishments!
ReplyDeleteI'm right there with you. I have felt so fat and miserable today and although it makes no logical sense at all, when I feel this way I want to turn to food. I can't even count the number of times I found myself in the pantry today asking myself, "What can I eat?" I feel so incredibly lost and helpless on days like this.
ReplyDeleteThank you for the post. I just wanted you to know I'm right here with you.
Oh and I WILL OVERCOME THIS as well. We can lean on each other if need-be!
Colleen
Goodbye, Fat Girl!
I hate how those darn lows just sneak up on you.
ReplyDeleteGlad you did get your workout in, I bet you feel so much better. =)
I have so been in that place before. The good news is that you are in complete control over where you are from this momemt on. All you need to do is decide you don't want to stay there, take the reigns and high-tail it outta there! Don't ever look back. You can do it and I cant wait to see you on the other side of this hurtle. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks for stopping by my blog. I look forward to celebrating our successes together.
Great post! This is exactly where I'm at. I look at pictures of myself before I gained the weight and I just ask myself, "Where did that girl go?" I'm getting myself back!
ReplyDeleteI'm a new follower, we seem to be in the same spot with the same goals! I look forward to reading more :)
Here's a quote that I was reminded of...
"Because it's only when you're tested that you truly discover who you are. And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be. The person that you want to be does exist, somewhere on the other side of hard work and faith, and belief and beyond the heartache and fear of what life has."